Yeah, that would be me. Exactly 13 minutes old at this age...right this minute.
You don't even have to try really... more then just invite it to happen and stand outta the way - look right after your impulse and appreciate the magic of it. Allow for your heart to just experience the surprise and amazement... giggle about it, go with that grand smile that's forming across your face. Feeeel it and enjoy. Believe even if you're laughing out loud that you 'Just can't BELIEVE it!"... you can and it's just like that.
That's Source. Whatever you name it or I name it or anyone calls it, it feels like that and that's not even a drop in the bucket.
They'll smile in the clouds when you walk and you'll see them say Hi in license plates, street names, phone numbers...all over the place all the time.
It'll be what the center of your heart is calling. Trust what you feel. Trust your heart and know it. And then know that you won't trust that at all... because you'll think you're crazy.
But otherwise, it'll feel like you're a kid with a brand new box of crayons... and the colors are yours to create and it won't feel like you have to share, but rather you're heart will explode into a want to share and you'll feel like dancing and kissing someone! You really will...
And then suddenly when you're in the center of that bliss... it'll throw this amazingly chaotic curve ball at you and you'll wake up one day feeling like crap. And you might freak out, get a little paranoid because you're starting to 'feel' more but you're not recognizing it yet... but 'deep inside', there will be this little tiny voice that almost seems like you're 'watching' all this happen. Almost like a lucid dream... but you're not quite sure you're dreaming yet.
You'll ask yourself over and over if you're losing your mind, if you're depressed ... you'll go through all the stuff you see on commercials. You'll even most likely go see a doctor to make sure you're not 'sick' or growing 'fuzz' in the wallpaper or anything, but AFTER you find out that you're actually well....
You'll be starting your decision making process and you'll be faced with the question of....
"Well?"
And then you'll reaaaally freak out and this is where you have to either hold on to the magic and insist it's magic and you're just getting used to it... or decide to go see a shrink.
Nothing wrong with them and by far, I'm not giving anyone advice so if you go see a shrink and it sucks, don't blame me, I never went.
I did do everything else to check my health, but I never got a pill or gave into the idea that I was fully out of control... to each our own.
I openly let you know that I live in delicious ma(dd)ness, so... take that for what it is.
Moving on...
As you freak out and think that you're about to crack the last nut in the bowl... it'll all mellow out and all of a sudden, something will make sense. And you'll be back to bliss for a minute...
So just breathe when you're wiggin' out, get some good music on and decide to just go with it without any reason to. Pretend you're a madd scientist or a super hero or something...
Then it'll get worse and then it'll get better.
It's a long ride, so ... be sure to be ready. Expect to make friends with your ego and expect that to suck too. Let me tell you something about Ego because I'm a Leo and I have an ego like no ones business... it's hard to make it move over and share the wheel. You have to negotiate in love, while pissed off at yourself and feeling awful about it. Having said that, diamonds are not made inside of mash potatoes... just remember that.
If you didn't 'get that' it means that you're foolin' yourself if you think it's not a direct reflection of yourself... so, pressure's on to 'know thyself' cupcake. :) Oh, and you might not even recognize your ego right off the bat either... if you're the religious type or a gamer or have something in your life that makes an 'imprint'... it might come out that way too. Demons are not coming out of the trees, the mailman has not bugged your house somehow and ... whatever else like that. It might be what you call 'god' or 'source' or 'universe' or just 'the 'more'... saying 'hey you there, wanna come play? :)
Plus or minus some intensity. Just know to expect 'The Red Pill' and when you're caught off guard and outta breath... know that your body is designed to take a break anyway and you DO have that split moment to just 'be okay' and let it happen.
Otherwise, you might think you're going insane or something. This is all I can think of to share right now. Not bad for being 1 hour 11 minutes old right this minute - how funny is that...
CraZZiest part?
All these things you've read up to here...? Really did and still DO happen to me.
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